Chapter 3
A Sudden Silence
Growing up in Dushanbe meant growing up surrounded by incredible culture. Our home was directly across the street from the Ayni Opera and Ballet Theatre, where I attended each performance. When I was ten, my family left Tajikistan and moved to the United States. The move was disorienting and difficult. I suddenly found myself in an entirely new culture, language, and system. For the first six months, I could not play piano at all. Since I spoke English well, I spent my days helping my parents adjust by translating documents, navigating unfamiliar systems, and adjusting to a world that felt impossibly different. We didn’t own a piano, and there was no budget for lessons either. Occasionally, someone in the neighborhood would let me play for a few minutes on their instrument, but that wasn’t much. It wasn’t until almost two years later that I began lessons again, this time with a teacher at a music school in Salt Lake City, Utah. Her expectations were high; she assumed her students were already competing at an international level and capable of learning large amounts of repertoire quickly. After years without formal training, it felt like being thrown into the ocean and told to swim. I adapted and grew because I wanted to prove myself, but the pace was punishing. Eventually, I developed a serious hand injury that forced me to stop playing completely. Multiple doctors recommended surgery, though they couldn’t guarantee I would ever play again. One physical therapist, however, believed in a different path. She told me we could rebuild carefully, without surgery, through slow and structured rehabilitation. [caption id="attachment_208" align="alignnone" width="974"]
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